I have been doing quite a lot of thinking. And I have concluded that truly I am RICH! :) Oh yes, I am really rich alright.
My definition of rich isn't measured by wealth or by what this world defines it. I'm rich because I am surrounded by a loving family and a group of amazing friends. They love me so much, and I love each one of them too.
I have always felt like I'm giving up my whole self and no one seemed to cared or even acknowledged me. Sometimes I just feel like no wanting to do what I do for people, but each time I try to not to do so, I find myself giving even more of myself. I wouldn't deny that at times I feel so drained out, like a dried up well and all I want is someone else to fill me up. I seldom hear an affirming word and when people do affirm me, I soaked it up like a person in the desert desperate for water.
God turned my life around. I find joy in what I am doing. It doesn't really matter if people acknowledged me or what I do. Furthermore, I learned that in order for me to give, I firstly have to learn to receive. Now, I find it hard to receive because I always felt that I should give but not receive. However, God is teaching me how to receive. Firstly, He taught me how to receive from Him, then from my family and then from my friends. Thus far, I have received so much from my friends. Apart from receiving love from them, I receive verbal affirming words as well as encouragement through emails, mails, and cards, notes, etc. In the past, I remembered that if someone praises me, I would say, "no" or "I'm not that person"; but I realized that I shouldn't be saying that because God created me to be who I am, and I should be ashamed or feel guilty receiving praises from people.
As I continue to learn, I believe that God is filling me up. I want to use what He has given me to make a difference to those around me. I do not feel tired doing what I am made to be. :) Everyone has an ambition/dream/hope in life - so do I. I want to be that "gentle breeze" which gives life to the soul... :)
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Last Night on the Boat: John 21:1-11
"When we choose Jesus, we lose nothing but gain it all."
Peter thought he had given up the fishes when he swam ashore to be with Jesus. In fact, Jesus had already prepared the fishes (including a fire place and bread!). And better, what he thought he'd given up, his buddies (the other disciples) came ashore with a net full of fishes. At the end of the day, Peter not only received what Jesus had prepared, he also received what Jesus had given him earlier.
This really reminded me that truly, it will be my "last day on the boat" as I am not going back to my past. After this incident, we never read of Peter going back fishing, instead he went around sharing the Good News with others. I want to be like Peter, who decided to abandon everything for Jesus.
My definition of rich isn't measured by wealth or by what this world defines it. I'm rich because I am surrounded by a loving family and a group of amazing friends. They love me so much, and I love each one of them too.
I have always felt like I'm giving up my whole self and no one seemed to cared or even acknowledged me. Sometimes I just feel like no wanting to do what I do for people, but each time I try to not to do so, I find myself giving even more of myself. I wouldn't deny that at times I feel so drained out, like a dried up well and all I want is someone else to fill me up. I seldom hear an affirming word and when people do affirm me, I soaked it up like a person in the desert desperate for water.
God turned my life around. I find joy in what I am doing. It doesn't really matter if people acknowledged me or what I do. Furthermore, I learned that in order for me to give, I firstly have to learn to receive. Now, I find it hard to receive because I always felt that I should give but not receive. However, God is teaching me how to receive. Firstly, He taught me how to receive from Him, then from my family and then from my friends. Thus far, I have received so much from my friends. Apart from receiving love from them, I receive verbal affirming words as well as encouragement through emails, mails, and cards, notes, etc. In the past, I remembered that if someone praises me, I would say, "no" or "I'm not that person"; but I realized that I shouldn't be saying that because God created me to be who I am, and I should be ashamed or feel guilty receiving praises from people.
As I continue to learn, I believe that God is filling me up. I want to use what He has given me to make a difference to those around me. I do not feel tired doing what I am made to be. :) Everyone has an ambition/dream/hope in life - so do I. I want to be that "gentle breeze" which gives life to the soul... :)
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Last Night on the Boat: John 21:1-11
"When we choose Jesus, we lose nothing but gain it all."
Peter thought he had given up the fishes when he swam ashore to be with Jesus. In fact, Jesus had already prepared the fishes (including a fire place and bread!). And better, what he thought he'd given up, his buddies (the other disciples) came ashore with a net full of fishes. At the end of the day, Peter not only received what Jesus had prepared, he also received what Jesus had given him earlier.
This really reminded me that truly, it will be my "last day on the boat" as I am not going back to my past. After this incident, we never read of Peter going back fishing, instead he went around sharing the Good News with others. I want to be like Peter, who decided to abandon everything for Jesus.
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