In reverance

I am in awe at how God works. At the same time I bow down in repentance and shame at my wrecked life. Today's CF was really a life changing experience for me. One that I'll treasure very much. Pre-prayer before CF opened my eyes to see how far and long I have strayed away from God. When my friends prayed and all, I just could not utter out words because I saw that I DID NOT know what and how to pray because I have not been praying diligently for some time. It puts me to shame but at the same, gave me the encouragement to start again; because my God is a God who is slow to anger and will forgive me when I turn back to Him. Because of this, I give thanks to God for this amazing time and opportunity to "rededicate" my life back to Him; to once again realign my life with His.

During worship, my friend Alison led us in a song entitled Better Is One Day. It struck me because this is the verse (Psalm 26:4) that I held on so dearly when I received the calling from God. But somehow I lost it and today, God brought it back into my life. It's like God breathing life once again to this lifeless life of mine.

My friends, Marijka and Mike shared on Love, Relationship & Sex and it was so timely. My mum never failed in her emails to me to remind me about my sexuality and purity and etc. that has to do with Love, Relationship and Sex; and here my friends shared on this "touchy" topic. However, this message tonight made me bow down in front of God and repent of my sins. Owh, the guilt and shame I face. But in Christ I know I am being set free. I found hope once again in God. There were so many things that happened to me in relation to these areas in my life that I want someone to confide in. A friend I can trust. [And I'm praying that God would bring this person into my life]

Life was not great for the past 2 years; but you know what? Despite me sinning against God, He never ever stopped loving me. Instead, He tried and tried and tried to get me back into His arms. Owh, I'm brought to tears as I think about this. How awesome that God is waiting for me; and when I returned to Him, how He opened up His arms widely and welcome me home. And He never judged me of my wrongdoings. How awesome is this... Like the song "You Were There" (Thank you Sara. This song truly ministered to me) Yes, God was, is and will be there for me, you, and everyone else.

Yes Lord, You see me. See these pieces of my life in my hands? I offer them up to You. Take it, and make me, mold me, to be the person you have created me to be. Take control of my life, and remind me constantly of Your calling in my life. Help me live this life according to Your will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

Make time for friends; those who would encourage you in your walk with God. Everyone needs someone to count on... =) Make that time and be blessed.