So it's March... I'm not sure how to feel at this point. I mean, I AM glad that it's March, but with March rapidly going by, soon, I will have to say goodbye to soooo many good things. Change is bound to come, but at this point, I am not ready for it.
Just yesterday I received an email from my mum and she was updating me a little about her life and about the family. She was telling me about how quickly her children have grown up. Soon, her little girl will turn 21; and her other little girl has gone through so much: working world, earning her first pay-cheque, fending for herself, and the latest - being summoned by the government for National Service in another state, across the South China Sea.
And not to mention mummy's little boy, who is turning 15; and being all 'grown up' and wanting to be 'a man' ;)
Change scares me - not that I don't welcome it, rather, most of the changes I've gone through involves pain, like having to let go of something good. But then again, only from change did I received more good things. I guess I fear of having to lose things, people, events that I have grown to love and cherish (and even grown comfortable with). Well, I guess when the time comes for change, God will have already prepared my heart, as well as the heart of those who are close to me.
Reading my mum's email did make me reflect back as well as to put myself in my mum's shoes. She mentioned of her feelings of "loneliness" knowing that soon, her children will are all growing up so fast and soon will be "leaving" her.
It must be really hard on her, and on my dad too. My mum would voice out her feelings; but my dad on the other hand, is quiet (my sister takes after him). But I think he did express his feelings through the little things he does: like he would google everything about UVic and Victoria and Canada for me since I told him I got accepted to UVic. When my sister got called for National Service, he googled everything that had to do with Sarawak. I guess in a way he's looking out for us; but I think he really wants to be close to his children. :)
SO, despite knowing that change will come - be it in my own life or even in the life of my parents - I will for now, enjoy every moment that God has given me. To have fun, laugther, creepy touches, hugs, and all those exciting, soul-searching & scandalous talks with friends. To enjoy the good-life He has blessed me with in Victoria. To love and be loved by Him and by others.
And talking about all those things, I am really excited for I [think] I will be getting ALL of those (and hopefully more) this coming week and weekend! =D
I'll keep you posted on that.
For now, I hear my assignments gently nudging me to spend some quality time with them; but my heart yearns to instead sip a mug of Chai tea, snuggle in bed and read "The Paper Bag Princess", "Thomas' Snowsuit", "Something Good", "Hug Time".... you know, heart-warming and lovable and "awhhhs..." children's books.
Just yesterday I received an email from my mum and she was updating me a little about her life and about the family. She was telling me about how quickly her children have grown up. Soon, her little girl will turn 21; and her other little girl has gone through so much: working world, earning her first pay-cheque, fending for herself, and the latest - being summoned by the government for National Service in another state, across the South China Sea.
And not to mention mummy's little boy, who is turning 15; and being all 'grown up' and wanting to be 'a man' ;)
Change scares me - not that I don't welcome it, rather, most of the changes I've gone through involves pain, like having to let go of something good. But then again, only from change did I received more good things. I guess I fear of having to lose things, people, events that I have grown to love and cherish (and even grown comfortable with). Well, I guess when the time comes for change, God will have already prepared my heart, as well as the heart of those who are close to me.
Reading my mum's email did make me reflect back as well as to put myself in my mum's shoes. She mentioned of her feelings of "loneliness" knowing that soon, her children will are all growing up so fast and soon will be "leaving" her.
It must be really hard on her, and on my dad too. My mum would voice out her feelings; but my dad on the other hand, is quiet (my sister takes after him). But I think he did express his feelings through the little things he does: like he would google everything about UVic and Victoria and Canada for me since I told him I got accepted to UVic. When my sister got called for National Service, he googled everything that had to do with Sarawak. I guess in a way he's looking out for us; but I think he really wants to be close to his children. :)
SO, despite knowing that change will come - be it in my own life or even in the life of my parents - I will for now, enjoy every moment that God has given me. To have fun, laugther, creepy touches, hugs, and all those exciting, soul-searching & scandalous talks with friends. To enjoy the good-life He has blessed me with in Victoria. To love and be loved by Him and by others.
And talking about all those things, I am really excited for I [think] I will be getting ALL of those (and hopefully more) this coming week and weekend! =D
I'll keep you posted on that.
For now, I hear my assignments gently nudging me to spend some quality time with them; but my heart yearns to instead sip a mug of Chai tea, snuggle in bed and read "The Paper Bag Princess", "Thomas' Snowsuit", "Something Good", "Hug Time".... you know, heart-warming and lovable and "awhhhs..." children's books.
2 comments:
First pay cheque man! *Boast ownself...
Oh btw, I'm back from Genting :)
Oh and do you know that I dreamt that I drove a car. Just like Michael Schumacker (IDK how to spell his name :/) Darn cool man ;) With shades on, driving sports car somemore. Fulamak! Macam celebriityyyy *Must read with the malay tone ;) But then its only a dream larh, sadly o.O
andrew says hi, in case jing didn't say it for me while she is there! :P
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