Geee... I don't know how I'm feeling right now. It's like, part of me is excited, and another part of me is not. I feel like as if I'm living in reality and in a dream all at the same time. It does not make much sense, but yeah, it kinda make sense to me. (weird, I know)

I feel overwhelmed right now. I think like this is the FIRST time in history which I think I would not make it through one of my subjects = having to retake it the following semester. (You must think that I'm a genius of some sort, heck no, I failed before in high school. It's just that I have this really high expectation on myself right now when I'm in university.) I feel kinda intimidated and I did wish many times that I was back home completing my degree; yet at the same time, I know I'm blessed to be able to come here to study. To top that up, CAD is nicely rising while USD is falling. It's like, every time I wanna get something, I freak out because of the mere thought of how much I'm "robbing" my dad of his money! I know that I'm to TRUST God in everything and not to WORRY because by WORRYING, I can't add a day... but heck, sometimes I just well, FAIL! Like right now.. worrying my butt off. =(

On the lighter note, I'm excited because of the new things which I'll be doing and discovering. There is just so much of things to do here, and I want to capture every moment of it. =) There are new people to meet, new friends to make, new places to go, new things to try, and all those whacky stuff I'm looking forward to get into like getting lost (again) somewhere, somehow; waiting for SNOW to fall; trying ice-skating on a lake (crossing me fingers, and hoping this will come true.. hehe); maybe even do some outdoor activities which I've never in my whole would do; or even try new kinds of food! Lolz...

Well, with all being said, I guess I just gotta learn to surrender EVERYTHING to God, and let Him take control of my life. I won't deny the fact that I've kinda wander off in my walk with God, but right now, I'm praying and am trying to get back to where God wants me to be. I think I've been wandering long enough and its time to get serious once again, and to experience all the wonderful things He has in store for me.

(Side-track: Since I got here, I realized that my books (no, not textbooks, but reading materials like story books, and other books) have been diligently collecting dust! I have no time to nicely sit and read, unlike back home where in a day, I can read 2-3 novels a day. University life isn't like what I expected it to be... =( It's harder and tougher and well, susah la.. Haha...) But it doesn't mean I did not have fun. I did! And I guess with a good dose of bitterness and sweetest, things will turn our alright, don't you think? =)