-Thursday-
Sometimes just when you think things are overwhelming and that God seems distance, never forget that in God's perfect timing, things will fall into place.


I cannot and must not, deny the fact that God has already preordained that my CG tonight consists of my CG Leaders and myself. We were talking about my uni and all, and I believe that God was in-charge of the whole conversation as while I was talking, my CG was able to sense something that was no right. And true enough, what he asked me managed to made me share the burden and struggles I had kept inside of me for a very long time. Let's put it this way: I put God some where behind me and I lot my focus and faith in Him. I felt distance from Him and I relied on my own strength in almost every situation. I was defending myself and not wanting to surrender things to the Almighty God.

Things took a different change that night as what my CG leader said, God cares so much about my relationship with Him. It was like the Prodigal son... Even before he admitted his sins and guilt, his father came running towards him. It's the same... God came running to me and despite of my stubborness and sins, He loves me TOO much to allow me to fall back further that He came running to me first...

God is a faithful God. No matter what we have done wrong, He never condemns us and when we admit our sins, He lovingly takes us back into His embrace.

-Friday-
After what happened last night, things took a different toll today. Things seemed to look different and I feel much calmer in dealing with things - for example, finance. I had a struggle that I lost my faith in God that He is my provider and that what looks impossible in men's eyes, were possible in His. However, today, when I was surrounded with the money issue, I did not felt the struggle to loose my faith in Him.

-Saturday-
I could not sleep last night until 4 am. However, when I managed to sleep, I had this unusual dream. I dreamt that I was in the midst of a crowd who were attending a seminar with a highly respected preacher. My sister and I were sitting right at the back and there was one time when someone on stage was giving out a booklet. as they were throwing it to the crowd, the preacher took the last booklet and faced directly at me and threw it at me. I was shocked as I did not know that the preacher even realized that I existed.

Anyway, the next thing I knew was that he invited me to the front and told everyone there that God had a great calling for my life. It was like as if I was the VIP for that night. The seminar when on with the preacher preaching and all and at the end of it, he announced for me to come right up to the front. Everyone was watching as I moved front. Then he asked me to life up both of my hands and with the olive oil in his hands, he anointed and blessed me. I remembered clearly something that he said... something that sounded like this: ... that God has a special plan for you and you will greatly bless many in your field of study... you will prosper when you do your major, Human and Social Development.... The word that I heard so clear was Human and Social Development. It was significant to me because I am still deciding what to major in and I was not sure if I wanted to major in Human and Social Development... But it looks like it's a confirmation... After that, I woke up.

When I dosed off to sleep again, I kept on having dreams about me being very prosperous in things that God has called me to... It was a really encouraging dream as it reminded me of what happened on Thursday night - that God was indeed a faithful God and what He has begun in me, He will complete it.